I don't know if I've been "abducted" by aliens although I've often wondered it silently to myself. For years since I was about 12 (when my parents say I underwent a marked personality change) I've had long periods of total memory loss. When I was 18 I started drawing alien faces all over the place and much later nearly had heart failure (not quite literally) when I saw the cover of 'Communion' because the alien portrayed was identical to what I had drawn years before seeing it.
I am currently 36. I've suffered depression for years, and have a feeling of something important I HAVE to do. If only I could remember what it was!! A totally irrational fear of being killed in the night - having to sleep with lights on at all time - terrified of cupboards and what might be in them. Psychologists have put forward many many theories ranging from sexual abuse to bipolar disorder (which they have currently decided is the cause of all my problems). I am psychic in many senses, particularly as an empath. Often I can't go out because other's feelings totally overwhelm me.
I have a recollection of a face painted white looking at me through my window (around the time when I changed dramatically at age 12) and someone coming in my bedroom that I was convinced was going to kill me. I used to wake frozen but have learned to overcome that by sheer willpower - make one small part of me move and all of me can then move. I have long had a fascination for UFO's and was once told by another person they could see aliens around me. Often it feels like two people are living inside me - but I am not schizophrenic. I was born a "gifted" child - with a very high IQ - yet have done nothing much to speak of - mostly due to fear. This permanent underlying fear - but of what I really don't know.
There are many other small things, little things, but is all this just the result of something wrong in me - or is it possible that I am an abductee and have no recollection of it all?
Thank you. -- Margaret